I’m back, and I’m mad

I’m back and I’m mad.

I hate that feeling when I stop and censor myself and only post something to friends instead of public, because I’m afraid of someone from work facebook creeping my public profile and it affecting my job security, because I work in a conservative state for conservative clients and… Argh.

There’s a thing on Facebook where people are mass checking in at Standing Rock to ruin it being used by police against DAPL protestors, and I wanted to participate. Doesn’t seem like it’d be a bit deal, right? But Oklahoma is where oil is King, and being associated with that might not be a wise choice, you know? I mean, it’s probably not a big deal, but then I go thinking about how we can’t afford for me to lose my job, that I have a family I have to provide for, and I feel guilty because safeguarding my ability to provide for my family is more important to me than my activism and I feel like I’m part of the problem rather than the solution but that doesn’t change my decision because I DO know which is more important to me.

Then I get angry because we live in a world where there are basically zero legal barriers to firing me for my politics, and little enough safety net to catch us if I did get fired for it until I found a new job.

So I wanted to vent. Not that I have time, which is why I stopped in the first place, but I’m going to give this blog another shot and use this instead. For whatever that’s worth.

-VoG